50: Absolutely Terrified :'(

Last night was quite possibly one of the worst of my life. It may have potentially fucked up everything 😥

49: Sting arranged!

All appears to be going to plan. There is nothing more we can do. Thankfully David isn’t objecting to my suggestions for our anniversary. Wanna hear it?

48: Good and… bad news :/

Let’s start with the good news:

47: “You sure you can do that?” PC

Sting (NOUN)
Pronunciation: /stɪŋ/

informal – A carefully planned operation, typically one involving deception: five blackmailers were jailed last week after they were snared in a police sting

46: Why am I thinking like this?

I’m waiting for a call back from our contact at Thames Valley Police. I guess there are more important things for them to do.

45: “It was your boyfriend!”

David is still on side (somehow), though I’ve not seen him in a while and have no idea where he is; he says he’s working etc, but come on – that’s not true! I don’t even want to think about where he is or what he’s doing because I will then let things get to me and will foolishly try and find the saint within.

44: In This Together :)

If I wasn’t so intoxicated last night then I probably wouldn’t have slept. It’s such a strange scenario to be in. I am almost happy that I’m no longer in this alone because I’ve let myself get so deep that I don’t know how to get out but I am also feeling this sense of guilt. I brought David into this house. I brought him into their lives.

43: It’s time to call the Police

I’m no longer alone. This is most definitely not just about me now. My fears were correct; David has taken advantage of my friends and my housemates.

42: To confront or to call it quits?

I’ve taken time out, shut myself away and truly thought about everything. So much has happened which just CAN’T be forgiven, forgotten or explained away. Regardless of whether David has anything to do with the ‘fraud’ on my housemates card or my best friend’s missing birth certificate, he’s still done enough to me to warrant me… ending things.

41: Missing: Birth Certificate

It appears that my best friend can’t find her birth certificate. As a reminder, she is the housemate who spends a lot of time with her boyfriend/fiancé and who I miss dearly – the one who I caught up with recently who seemed to sense that something was up.